So tomorrow
is a big day. As volunteer we have to register at Kolej Perindu, UiTM Shah
Alam. At 3rd, the opening ceremony will be held. And at 4th, the tournament
will be officially started until 16th of February. Oh how I wish I’m in the
middle of my sem break. I really am desperately wanted to join it.
A few days
ago, I got a message directly from the SUKIPT committee member. I’d been assign
to watch over the tennis competition. I don’t really into tennis but still it’s
not an everyday opportunity right. I really want to be there. But every time I
think of it, there’s this sudden feel of guilt crept in me. How about my lecture
class?? Am I going to take another leave - again?? And the taxi fees, it really
burnt down my whole pocket.
‘Where there’s
a will, there’s a way’
Ahh, I have
the will but there’s no other way. Unless I can split my body two. I don’t want
to be the only one left behind in class and I don’t want to miss the only
chance I have to be part of our country biggest sport event!
Sometimes,
you just can’t have it all. There’ll be time that we all have to choose. And
that’s also mean to sacrifice. To choose is to sacrifice. Am I greed? Because I
want them both. Do you know that feels when you want something that bad you’re
willing to do anything? That’s actually how I felt about SUKIPT.
On 18th January,
we were call for volunteer briefing at Stadium UiTM Shah Alam. I constantly
told myself back then, ‘Just give it a try and then make up your mind later’. I
was afraid to go to an unfamiliar place alone. I asked my friend, but I hate to
trouble people with my own problem. So, deep breath and I was there…
It was
deserted. Found out that I was the earliest at the moment. So, I take a walk of
course. Now, things look a little less scarier than before.
This dilemma
continues when I had to attend the volunteer workshop at 20th to 23rd January.
My class.. oh my class.. After hours of brain storming, I saw a way. Like
usual, I go to class and after 4pm I’ll just head back to UiTM Shah Alam. That’s
seem nice, at the moment yes. But, the hardest part is to go to INTEC from
UiTM.
I asked a
favor from my friend to pick me up since she has a car but things went wrong.
Extremely wrong. Both of us got lost inside the campus and for 30 minutes we
didn’t met each other, I told her to just go without me since it’s already 8am.
She was slightly mad at me. I mean, okay I’m really sorry you got lost and
suddenly my phone went dead. It’s not what I had plan in mind.
I got
trouble myself. After that, I wait for bus and as I step on it I just realized I
left my wallet. Embarrassing moment ever. I had to ask the driver to let me
down as soon as I step on it. Then, I head back to the hostel. Guess what? Embarrassing
moment ever number 2. I accidentally enter the male hostel! I just realize I
took the wrong turn when I saw a man doing a laundry.
In front of
my room, ‘Nice, my money in there, I don’t have the key and my phone battery is
dead. Tragic.’ Then, quietly I follow a couple of girls from behind who want to
go to dining hall to get their breakfast. First thing first, let’s eat.
Although I
finally found the key holder, unlocked the room, get the money, called a taxi
to pick me up and arrived at INTEC at 10am, somehow I don’t feel that all of my
effort was worth. In 2 hours, I’d do things that I never imagine I will do in
my life. I even asked a ‘polis bantuan’ to give me a ride. And she was like, ‘I
want to but I don’t have an extra helmet’. That moment when you’d been rejected,
embarrassing moment ever number 3.
But I got to
know new friends. And I don’t regret a little when it comes to that. It was
something that you can’t get inside the classrooms. It was worth all the pains,
moneys, times, lessons, and etc. It was experiences.
tini.fatin.sab.twin.eman.tira
*sila tambah kak-. coz I'm the youngest.
the havoc roommates
'kan gua dah cakap gua... havoc2' - kak sab
tetiboh hehe ^^
terima kasih kolej perindu~
kan ku rindu mu selalu
ldk - team building
kumpulan 2 - gorila
I guess that was all that I can afford of. I was that close but at the end, I just have to let go. It's ok. There'll be another time. I've made up my mind. I will not go the briefing tomorrow. Let's just end it here.
I hereby want to wish good luck and happy fighting to those who involve directly or indirectly in this SUKIPT whether as an athlete, committee or volunteer. Do your best and enjoy the moments while it still last. Be part of something this big is an achievement. Seek the pleasure in aiding others and never to claim for return.
*majulah sukan untuk negara!