Masa mula-mula dapat jemputan pergi Mukhayyam tu, jemputan lah kan sebab special invitation tak ramai yg dapat, macam-macam alasan nak bagi. Kalau boleh nak cakap direct,
'Akak sorry saya taknak pergilah. Weekend ni nak clearing kolej lepastu macam malas lah takde mood sekarang ni. Lenkalilah ye kak fura.'
Lama menatap phone nak cari ayat macam mana nk tolak kata tak nak pergi. Mesti aya dengan ecah pon tak pergi. Tak kan aku sorang. Lepastu dah dekat situ nati sorang sorang nak buat apa, mesti bosan.
Lepastu kepala ni flashback flashback cerita lama.
Cerita nya dulu nangis pergi program PEPIAS sebab takde kawan. Dah pernah ajak budak kisas pon semua macam hmmm oh yeke. Kalau ajak pon nak balik tu ada yang tanya dpt sijil tak? Lepastu nabil ada cakap,
'Kenapa kak nani masuk pepias dulu? Kalau sebab xde kawan je kak nani taknak pergi program taknak turun usrah, kenapa kak nani masuk. Tak senang jalan ni sebab tu bukan semua org nak.'
Hujan.
Lepastu satu lagi masa sem 2. Waktu tu semua orang busy dengan kelab lah bagai-bagai. Selalu tengok ecah pergi meeting, balik lambat, lepas tu selalu lepak dengan PSC and the gang. Memang respect dengan ecah. Kalaulah kerja-kerja tu semua macam buku boleh kita nampak, dah lama aku mintak separuh nak tolong bawakkan.
Satu hari tu lepas usrah dengan kak fura, ecah mengadu. Dia terkilan sebab rasa macam kena perli dengan kak fura. Waktu tu kitorang ada daurah usrah tapi ecah kena pergi daurah psc. Ingat lagi dia kata,
'Kenapa kena macam ni eh? Kadang-kadang kita rasa macam kita dah penat..'
Guruh.
Lepastu aya.
Petir.
Hahaha
Dah banyak sangat benda flashback en, terus rasa macam pergi jela ika. Jumaat sabtu ahad je. Ada hikmah nati Allah campak kau kat sana.
And yep sampailah akhirnya dekat Mukhayyam tu. Sampai sampai lagilah baru 4 orang je yang ada. Tak semangat langsung rasa.
Lepastu nampak Syifa', Azura, Nadhirah, Tasya, Saadah, budak-budak actp ausmat tu lah kan. Bahagia betul rasa. Yeah INTEC berkampung haha. Tapi hati rindu alkis intec. Rindu je la mampu.
Macam mana mukhayyam ni?
Hari sabtu tu ada ceramah je basically. Pasal 10 muwasafat tarbiyah. Lepastu ada bengkel kena buat presentation group. Petang ada pertandingan Mastercheff. Malam ada hmmm seperti biasa malam muhasabah. I cried a lot. Even though I should feel sick of it, I just can't. Sometimes it feels good to be reminded. Bcs when you get older, that's something that you'll get lesser.
And hari ahad ada explorace dengan persembahan kebudayaan.
You know, one thing that I really value from this mukhayyam; (3:103).
It was like earlier when I said that I didn't want to come. That I better off doing something else. And then suddenly this verse coming down like a bomb blowing out my mind, saying;
' Hold fast.. all of you together to the rope of Allah '
It's like a reminder for me not to astray and to always have faith in Him. You might lose some friends, its ok. Hold fast. He said. To his promise, to his deen, to him..
When I finally get hold of myself, then I think hey it's not so bad. There are bunch of good people here. I better make friends and have fun and definitely not thinking of anything sad or whatever right now.
Definitely not bad, at all.